14th october... a day wasted on resting... didn't do any study... used the com the whole day... still using it when writing this... apparently some freaking lagger in gunbound refuses to leave and i hao bu rong yi got a room so i'm not leaving... so the others have to leave but refuse to... which sucks... that's why i'm writing this... but i think i'll be playing again...

anyway... it's been a while since i wrote.... as everyone knows... i'm having the Os... now it's approaching the end... it's rather fast eh... i find it too... i'm already dreading the results... i know it ain't gonna be any good... sigh... preparing myself for the worst already...

i'm thinking about CHRISTMAS!!! how can i be thinking about christmas when i'm still having exams... sigh... oh well... christmas decorations are all over now... of course i'll be thinking about christmas... they out up too early already... all their fault... haha... i'm mad... i'm already in holiday spirits... oh well... mug hard for another week and that's it... no more books!!! it's bye bye to them and hello to happy hours... hahahahahahaha..... happy happy cynthia... i think too much le... haha... oh well...

on the 10th of november which is bio paper... i fell down... and seriously... it was damn embarassing... everyone on the bus looked at me... giving the "what's wrong with her" look... can't be help right... i missed a step... and the person in front of me was like so slow... the bus uncle even said to me " xiao mei... xiao xing yi dian ar... ne kan... die dao le... hai yo..." then he shakes his head... i of course... embarassingly bend my head and scan my card and look for a seat... everyone then stared at me... so embarassing.... now my leg hurts... i got this big blue black on my leg... okay... not exactly very big... but quite big... and hurting alot... now... i need to put a cushion in front of me leg if i were to lean on the table with my leg up... or else... it'll hurt like shit...

i realize that people can't treat me good... as in treat me very good... cos once they do that... i feel kind of weird... and maybe pull away... what's wrong with me... beats me... it's like... i kind of get scared by those that treat me too good... i really got a problem up in my head yeah... oh well... need to do a CT scan and see what the hell is wrong with me... a psychological barrier? yeah... i supposed... but then... i sometimes just can't help feeling that way... sigh... my darlings... you say what's wrong with me leh? crazy? i heard that before le... anything else?

that's it... pretty girl once again signs off her pretty land where pretty dreams come true...