16th october... didn't have my history mock test... it's great... did a little studying while i had my hair rebonded again... hehe... waste of money? yeah... i know... but hey... i'm paying it for myself yeah... my mum only sponsor $30 for it... so i'm still paying... it does make a little sense yeah... call me spoilt or whatever... can't a girl just be vain yeah... haha...

my idol... messaged me to say he's gonna watch mamamia... lucky bugger... i wish i could... but i can't... and he even said he might fall asleep during the show... i suppose some people just don't like this kind of musicals eh... jay chou's coming to town again... sigh... this would be the 2nd time i'm missing his concert... sigh... when he comes again i suppose by then i'll be able to go... hehe... cos i think by then there wouldn't be any exam which makes me can't go eh... hehe... just want to join in the crowd ma... i actually never go concert before you know... so must understand why i'm always keen to go to one... hehe...

hmmm.... it's been like 3 days ever since i've given up on him... joyce dear... you've got one thing wrong... it does mean something to me if he tells me how he feels... i mean... i want to hear it for myself... if not... i don't know... it just doesn't feel right... hey... giving up on him isn't such a bad thing yeah? i mean it;s not like he'll be affected... maybe i'll feel a little sad... but what do you know... i'm already over him... he's not what he use to mean to me anymore... we are still friends... i didn't say we aren't friends... not talking doesn't mean not friends right? he's caught up with his own stuff and i'm caught up with mine.. it's as simple as that... if he wants to say hello i'll be polite and say hello... then... that's it i suppose... very casual talks... not like what we used to do last time... it's fine... i can live with it... soon we'll just drift apart... that's what he does all the time... doesn't he... he already found someone new... so what for hang on right? it's time for me to disappear... and i'm doing just that... so it isn't that bad... he's just someone that comes and go... i have my darlings still right? they'll be there for me still even though they have their own beaus too... or maybe i'll just... you know... keep it to myself... and let nature do what it does best... yeah...