13th october... wasted my time in school... i came for nothing!!!! argh.... stupid school... why like that... cheated me... both my darlings didn't come to school.... i was like left with only edwin and wei xing to accompany... it wasn't that bad... but in the morning... edwin was like totally mood swinging... 1 minute hyper the next minute damn pissed then hyper again... crazy dog... he was down because of the presence of his one and only... stupid isn't it... sigh... that's our edwin... bio was surprisingly very funny today... don't know why everyone during bio very happy... even mrs koh wasn't exactly very serious... hehe... that was the most fun bio lesson ever...
wasn't any bio after school today... edwin and i had a free ride to siglap centre all thanks to Iswandi and Akash... hehe... went cartel for lunch with him and wei xing... stayed there and studied... ordered 2 drinks that looked nice... and it tasted nice too... haha... did 2 paper of maths in cartel and slept for a while... hehe... at around 5 plus we left the place... saw a okay okay looking guy on the bus home... haha... but he's kind of weird.. got chair to sit he don't want... he sit half way then stand all the way home... so stupid right... i was like waiting for a seat but there wasn't any for me... yet he had a seat and he didn't want it... so dumb...
pereira was hell of a big bitch today... she refused to let us off early... 4 eb got to go off early cos at 1 the teachers had meeting... but that woman insisted that we continued to be in school and do her stupid compre... what a freaking bitch eh... sigh... all of us did the paper half heartedly and went off as soon as we finished it... hehe... the school was like super empty... no one in school except my class and 5n1... so idiotic... today's school is like the slackest of the slack... even mr ng who always wants to teach didn't bother teaching... he just make us do the pass with distinction excercise... but of course i can't be bothered to do... hehe... i did my own work... hoho...
he and i are really through... i mean it... we live in our own world now... we can't really be bothered with each other anymore... that part is rather contradicting eh... especially when i'm talking about him now... hehe... oh well... but you know what i mean right... i mean it's like he and i... i don't know... i suppose... i liking him was the biggest mistake ever... i mean... he's not what he is on the net yeah... maybe cos i never get a chance to know whether he is... but it seems like it... i still like him though... and he'll still be my girlfriend... i know in my heart that the both of us are impossible though... i wished he tell me how he feels... shush okay... don't breathe a word about that wish... i strongly believe in destiny... and if we are really fated to be together or just let each other know how we feel about each other... somehow or rather he'll say it... and then i'll tell too yeah? yeah... i'm so good at reasoning with myself... hehe... but then there'll of course be a time limit to this... i'm giving it till the end of the Os... and then... if he doesn't say anything... i'll tell him... cos i know it won't matter once he knows after the exams... cos i'll never see him again for another 2-3 months... and even if i see him on the street when i'm out i doubt we'll even acknowledge each other... we'll probably past each other like any stranger do... and by the time we see each other i think he'll already forget about me saying all that shit to him and he'll mive on.,.. and so do i... and if we end up in the same school... we'll still not be able to see each other cos the school's rather huge and coincidence do not happen often... so we still won't see each other and i'll get over him by all these stuff... right? good analysis... haha... i love myself for this... hoho...
i think i shall stop here now then... yesterday got scolded from my dad cos i was using the computer at around 12 midnight to anter a entry... and when he caught me using it... however though... i finshed my entry just as he came into the room... and was about to off the computer... but he scolded me nonetheless... oh well... he hates me... i know that... but i think i'll just ignore him... he hates me so what... i'm tired of pleasing him all the time already... the pretty girl's signing off one more time... wait for the next episode of her life same page... muackssss!!!
P.S:by the way... my heng goddess is gonna be in the AVA room with me till 1.30pm on my practical day!!!! whoopi!!!! he bloody hell not let me down again... or i'm really through with him... hehe... =D
