10th october... didn't do much studying... only did 1 chapter of history... and my history test is lik tomorrow!!!! sigh... didn't have the heart to study... ended up sleeping the whole day... it's back to school for me again... how sucky... irritating teachers would appear in front of me... again... sigh... why can't this week be the last week instead of tomorrow's week being the last week... if this week was the last week then i do not need to hand in any letter... oh well... heard that on tuesday on wednesday would be a half day... whoopi... hehe...

my darling is so stressed up... sigh... wish i could do something for her but i know i can't cos me myself is also facing a very stress period now... nothing seems to go right around this period of time... my dad's ignoring me... he doesn't even bother talking to me anymore... it's like i don't even exist in the house... he seems to like only have 2 daughters only... i'm like totally a ghost in the house to him... i wish he didn't do that... it's kind of hurting to see my own dad treating me like no one... sigh... he always telling my sister things which is indirectly referring to me.. like for instance that time... i shift the fan to a position that was blocking the way... instead of telling me not to do that, he tols my sister instead... i mean... what's his problem... why is he treating me like that... sigh... i really don't know what to do... i suppose i've got a weird father...

i'm liking someone with no common stuff... hmmm... i wonder why... opposite attracts? but we're not magnets are we... sigh... he's 2 different person over the net and reality... so which one is then what i really like about him... i ain't so sure... i suppose time would tell... not a very appropriate time to think about this eh... i can't help it sometimes though... i always wonder alot... wonder about how things would be if this didn't happen sort of thingy... is it good or bad... sometimes i ain't so sure about it myself... he's not honest with me... he never is... he says aomething but he means another... my instincts tells me so... are my instincts right about it... i suppose so.. i always trust them and so far it hadn't fail me yet... he's nice to me... but come to think of it... he's nice to every girl... i mean... when has he ever say no to a girl to do something... like NEVER... sigh... i have no idea what make me attracted to him... asking me if i'm having second thoughts about me liking him... yeah.. i am... cos it doesn't make sense... i mean... he's one of my darlings and we say stuff that we don't mean... i mean... where's the sense in that yeah? oh well... i suppose life is just so weird... all these stupid feelings coming up... i wish i didn't have to feel any of these....

i suppose that's all i'm going to write to day... another entry would be posted with a song that i like alot and i suppose describes how i'm feeling now... so... the pretty girl's signing off yet another time...